*flutter flutter*

I want to be a butterfly.
An emotionless butterfly fluttering around trying to settle down somewhere, but everywhere I go, I am pestered off. Mentally.
I don't have much of an identity if I can't find the right place where I can safely say is my own. Everyone's different, yet these differences don't allow me to show the best I could really be. Or maybe this really is the best I could be...
I want peace of mind.
I want to stop wandering around aimlessly in life taking things for granted.
I want someone who would care for me. Besides my mother.
I want to smile for real.
I want to stop having these sick thoughts of hanging or decapitating myself in front of 'someone'.

Life's countdown starts from the day you're born.